Rainy Days

Waking up on rainy days can either be relaxing or fucking horrible. Some days it's nice to wake up to such a gloomy day, knowing that it's raining so you don't have to go out and socialise, always a good excuse besides asking your mum to pretend that she doesn't allow you to go out. Yet some days waking up to a rainy day can be so traumatising, looking out memorising all the shitty things that have happened in the past, even though you don't want to think about it.

Honestly I don't fucking know why I'm ranting about rainy days, it's raining here and I guess the cold, cloudy sky just give me an inspiration to write? I know there are more important shit to write about but I'm just not feeling it. Sorry. Yes, I despite rainy days because I can't draw or paint outside my balcony but I love it at the same time.

Rainy days are kinda nice, the rain drops are like the tears that I find difficult to produce, the dark sky reflects my mood, how the clouds are covering the sun but the sun is still there, just not visible to the naked eyes. Like how my soul is covered by darkness yet there's still a glimpse of light, I just have to believe that it's still there, no matter how dull it may appear. I like how the rain feels on my skin, it's so cooling and refreshing. I like how the breeze casually drifts by, washing away the heat of Saigon. I like to listen to the rain, how the droplets just touch the first surface that they come in contact with, vibrating out those calming sound waves. It drowns out the thoughts in my head, even just for a while, it's enough.

Smoking a cigarette, or cigarettes in my case, while looking out at the rain is quite an experience (I'm not encouraging you to smoke and please don't start just because I said it's "quite an experience", I'm killing myself is alright but not others). Watching the smoke getting carried away by the wind gives my eyes that dose of aesthetic. Meanwhile drinking that hot bitter black coffee just warms up my internal. In addition to the sound of rain, a dope ass indie playlist on spotify just completes it (try listening to these artists; No Vacation, Dream Girl, Cuco and other related artists lmao). To me a combination of these things gives me serenity.

Something positivity? After the rain, there's usually a rainbow (usually not always). Just like how life is a fucking roller coaster, it goes up and down, sometimes more downs than ups but at least there are ups right? In the end it's still fucking terrifying (both life and roller coaster, optimism is too much for me, I tried).

I'm sorry for this boring random post about rainy days, it's just my artistic interpretation of the situation and I don't know what the fuck am I doing so yeah.
Till next time?
Như.