Wow. Where do I begin? It has almost been a year since I last updated my blog, which is terrible. A lot of shit happened within the last one year. I've changed so much as a person, obviously I went down a rough patch of my life and everything was fucked up, but things are brighten up I hope.
I originally wrote this blog when my heart was filled with love and joy, that's why it's so pink, but also because pink is my favourite colour. When things changed, I changed as well, a blunt way to describe it is that I'm not as bright and bubbly, hitting adulthood I also lost my old self. Within the last one year, I've hurt plenty of people, even once that I once loved dearly. I did quite some travelling in Summer, main purpose was to escape reality for a while, seeking for serenity. Me, myself and I went to Bali, Singapore and Malaysia in 2 weeks during July/August. Although it wasn't that long but I guess I learned quite a bit, especially how to not die because there were some close calls. Yes, I broke up with my ex-boyfriend but I also found someone new, quick I know but it's a long story and there is no excuse for me being a bitch. My current relationship is sailing smoothly with both of us loving and respecting each other and I'm glad I found him although it was very spontaneous, which I personally love.
Right now I'm just trying to find and improve myself, hoping to cure my shitty occasional social anxiety so that university won't be a shit show in November. Besides trying to manage my insanity, I'm also currently volunteering for animal shelters in Singapore and that will also be where I'm starting my university, although it's only temporarily. Why Singapore? Firstly, my boyfriend is in Singapore, secondly I have to wait for my Australian visa work and lastly I just need a break from Saigon. Saigon, I fucking love that place to death but with its beauty, a lot of pain and dark memories are associated with it so I just needed to get away for a while. Don't worry I will be back.
Something quite random yet sensitive that I want to share with you guys is how to deal with depressive thoughts and negative feelings because I know a lot of people are suffering from it and I found a really effective way to deal with the shitty situation. If you are accessible to the brand "Knock, knock", I know it's available in Singapore but if you are find one of their journals that's called "My dysfunctions", I will attach an image below, but this journal was designed for people with unstable thoughts that aren't able to express it. Instead of sharing it out loud, which you might feel uncomfortable or bottle it up, which might cause you to internally explode, another way is to write and express it out through words. I must admit it's not the cheapest purchase but it's definitely very worthy for its purpose. I've been spending time introspecting myself and updating my journal everyday. Every time I complete an entry I feel like some of my weights have been lifted and I feel elevated in a way.
Here is an image of the journal:
Totally not saying that you must buy the journal, anything notebook should be fine. The point here is just fucking write it down if you enjoy writing because it fucking helps.
Not sure what else I want to update you on but I think I got most of the important parts updated. Hopefully my next post will be in the near future because I do miss blogging.
Love you all and stay strong,
Như.
